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[28 Sep 2005|10:54pm]
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ozzfest sucks [28 Aug 2005|07:51pm]
so im back from ozzfest, it sucks I felt terribly out of place. just a bunch of goth, metal, new metal kids. fat girls with no shirts and paint on there tits. fucking sick. Im tired, my head hurts, my throat hurts. As I Lay Dying was fucing awesome was right in the front for them, Killswitch Engage was good but I rocked out to much to AILD. Bury Your Dead was good too.

I miss Ricky like a muthafucka right now. Ozzfest would have been better with him.
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where is my amor? [26 Aug 2005|12:56pm]
[ mood | okay ]

So I officially finished my first real week of work, I already love it, the pay is awesome, I love the job and I work with decent people. Got paid yesterday which half is already gone cause I bought shit for the apartment and my ETID ticket. Im excited!!! The rest of my money will go towards buying clothes for work, gas and something else I wont mention here.

TOnight brother and I are going to a show, Im excited cause it'll be the second one here in austin.

I dont work until 2:30 on monday fuck yeah!!!!

Lj will be deleted soon, I dont write shit anymore and I really dont care. If you care you'll figure out how to keep in touch and if I care I'll do the same.

I miss my love, things are going so good. I love him so damn much I wish I could see him.


also I deleted alot of people from my AIM buddy list and yahoo list, and I block anyone not on them so if you never see me online it means I really dont need to talk to you anymore. dont take it personal there is just no point in talking to people i dont care about.

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fuck my head with a pillow and put me to sleep [23 Aug 2005|07:02pm]
fuucking shit im tired but im waiting for pizza and the real world, i might nap after the pizza and wake up and watch it and go to my apt to sleep.

today was long as fuck, 1 hour and about 15 mins driving to the school and back. i hate high school kids especially the ones i dealed with today stupid stuck up bitches or stupid thugged out boys. fuck that.

i miss ricky
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time to grow up.... [21 Aug 2005|03:01pm]
[ mood | indescribable ]

So my baby is gone now, I most likely wont see him til about nov. I dont know what I'm gonna do without him, I got so use to him being here. Taking him to the airport was hard we were late and I was hoping he'd miss his flight so he wouldn't have to go but he didnt so I went down the stairs and looked at him one last time. I came home to sleep since I didn't last night. I feel like shit, I love this boy more then anyone could ever know.

Tomorrow I start my real work at a High School, Im scared but excited. I'll be with other people this week then I start doing my own thing next monday. I hope Im just really busy with work to make time go faster.

I miss my family and I can't wait to see them in November.\

Brother gets here tomorrow evening, it'll be cool to be around him, I miss him. He is one of my best friends, we might even go to Ozzfest.

My year here started yesterday..... what have I got myself into. I'll be ok.


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fuck that [17 Aug 2005|09:06pm]
Work has been good, today was a bitchh though being a school photgrapher is hard work but it's awesome when you come home to love.... yay!

This weekend was in San Antonio for the system of a down concert (which was awesome), to see my mom, aunt, and uncle (who i missed), and see yaya become a grown up by moving into her dorm.

Tomorrow is my love and my 10 month anniversary which is good cause i love this muthafucka like woah and he smells like a woman.... a sexy woman!!!!!

That is all.....

Peace of niggas!
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HAPPY BIRTHDAY HERMANO!!!! [16 Aug 2005|04:37pm]
hey bitch happy birthday!!!!! just wait til you get here be ready to rock out with the cock out bitch!

work is good....

ricky is love!!!
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[11 Aug 2005|05:05pm]
So I got the job at lifetouch, I start tomorrow and Im fucking excited as hell about that and to make things better my love is sleeping less then a foot away from me. YAY!!!!!!!!!!!
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[10 Aug 2005|08:25pm]
Peter Jennings was one of the best journalist on tv.
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yay!!!!! [10 Aug 2005|03:22am]
[ mood | happy ]

SO Im so fucking happy right now cause I found out that Ricky will be here Thursday morning.... YAY!!!!! I miss him like crazy.


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FUCK YESSSSSS BITCHES!!! [05 Aug 2005|04:03pm]
09.21.05 Austin, TX @ Emo\'s High On Fire, The Chariot, The Red Chord

YESYESYESYESYESYESYES!!! Im fucking happy, I didnt get to go to SOTU but theyre coming woohoooo!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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Today is Shubys Bday! if you see her hug her for me cause I can't.

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shitty shitty fuck fuck [03 Aug 2005|02:13am]
Ay dios mio!

So I went to my second interview for lifetouch today, Im pretty sure I got it but they have to run the background check and stuff. I HOPE I GET THIS JOB!!!!

So still no word on when Ricky is coming or if hes coming at all... I hate this!

I miss my family.

Im gonna go see At All COst on sat, it will be my first show in austin, Im excited.

I guess thats all...
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tommy's art! [30 Jul 2005|01:47am]

So me and tommy were just drawing dumb shit on the yahoo doodle thing, then he drew these....

a girl sucking a dick while getting it doggy style



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fucking late night calls [29 Jul 2005|07:15pm]
So I stood up all night last night talking to different people, the last one being Ricky. I always seem to say some stupid shit and then it begins this big fucking argument. Yeah I know he was at J town, he is allowed to see/talk to other girls. One week til I see him (hopefully).

Im on my period.... arggg!!!!!!

Today is Friday and me and Rudy are gonna party like its 1999!!! Just for shits and giggles I'll let you guys know what I did when it turned into the year 1999.

Me, my brother Rene, and all the other kids watched MTV's new years eves party to watch LIMP BIZKIT!!!! yeah bitches we <3ed LIMP BIZKIT, we even had shirts!! OWWWW WE WERE HARDCORE!!!!
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[28 Jul 2005|05:59pm]
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[28 Jul 2005|12:29pm]
[ mood | anxious ]

I have the interview soon, Im scared.

Ive begin to notice how all my post suck.

I want to go to a show but I think I'll just wait til next weekend to see At All Cost...woohoo!!!

I love the sleeping pills, I'm still sleepy.

I'm kinda glad Im not in el paso because I know I'd hate alot of people..... even some people who would consider themselves as a "friend".

Possibly a weeek til I see my <3, I really hope he does come and that I get to see System Of A Down.

My pink hair owns but I think I need to get rid of it soon for a job.

I cant wait to see my family that is going to drop off Rose in SA, I wanna see my mom and aunt bad.

This year is gonna be fucking crazy.....

SOmeone come up and take me to OZZFEST!

How far is odessa from austin?

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sleep time [27 Jul 2005|02:11am]
i bought some sleeping pills cause ive been having problems sleeping, they hit me now so i will sleep.

i love ricky
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fuck im tired [25 Jul 2005|09:55pm]
so today rudy got back which makes me super happy cause now i wont be lonely. i only got less the two hours of sleep so im tired as fuck... :yawn:

rudy, grandpa and i went to the cheesecake factory, arrrg it was good food. these past weeks Ive had to cook mostly everything Iv eaten so it was nice just to sit and get served. I got vanilla bean cheesecake and it was fucking good!!!!!!!!

my foot is asleep.

im waiting for ricky cause i havent talked to him today, he better hurry cause im sleepy as fuck.

im downloading AILD shadows are security cause im poor right now and cause ricky is getting it for me when he comes down in two weeks. YAY!

I miss my family.

I guess thats it.

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rina is one complicated bitch [24 Jul 2005|05:55am]
In hopes of making myself better ill write this, im not asking for attention, not asking for a fight, not asking for advice cause i wont listen.

I'm stubborn as fuck especially when it comes to people i love/care about. It's hard for me to let someone in but once they are it's even harder to let go. If you know me well you know what I mean. Even when a friend fucks me over I'll still be willing to give them another chance cause i feel like their worth it. I did that for lisa for a few years, did it even did it for aaron (if you know whats up youll know what I mean.)

Friendship is one thing, being in love is another. Everyone at sometime considers anyone theyve had a relationship as love, even those high school crushes as love. I've done it, you know it.

But I am in love, real love not this puppy love bullshit, unrequitted crap, or the love where you just imagine the person and are blinded to see the real person.

Ricky is the real thing, I dont hide anything from him, he sees all my flaws, deals with them the best way he can. I dont act a certain way when he's around, I act like myself. I can tell him anything, he's there when I need him even when he doesnt wanna be. I can bitch at him and tell him to fuck off but he always makes sure I'm ok even when we're 500+ miles away.

So I came to Austin to prove something to everyone, to my family, to friends, to ricky, to myself. All of them were different things I felt I had to prove but none of them mattered cause I haven't proved shit to myself. I've managed to bring problems to Austin instead of trying to fix them or get over them.

I'm so consumed with shit that is no where near me, getting pissed over stupid shit. I'm so jealous but I know where I stand. I see all these girls sending him messages, I want to tell them to fuck off, start to cry because I feel ugly.... but i know they will never have what I have.

Ricky and I are that funny couple, we do the stupidist shit together, he's my best friend, my lover. He's everything I've ever wanted in a companion.

I use to get so depressed about us and how things have turned out, i'd post how we'd have problems or how we broke up when it was no ones fucking business. Things are the same between us, he makes me happy, he makes me sad, I piss him off, I make him laugh.

So I talked to yvonne today and she pointed out alot of obvious shit, shit I knew I should have seen. I dont need someone to feel complete. I've been fine for the past 20 years.

I dont know....

I'm use to being alone, I miss everyone like fuck. It's not easy, not at all. I know what I'm capable of when I want something bad. I want to be in Austin and be ok, not just ok be happy.

i'm finally ready to move on and get over the fact that I'm missing shit in el paso by being here. If something is real and is true it'll be there when I go back and if not I'll be fine cause what is true will be there to give me a shoulder to cry on.

im out,
rina y trejo rossdale

i need to sleep [23 Jul 2005|09:33am]
[ mood | sleepy ]

im waiting for NIN tickets to go on sale online. I better get to see them or I will be pissed as fuck.

im fucking tired


IM GONNA SEE NINE INCH FUCKING NAILS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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